Guilt

Guilt
1: the fact of having committed a breach of conduct especially violating law and involving a penalty ; broadly : guilty conduct
2 a: the state of one who has committed an offense especially consciously b: feelings of culpability especially for imagined offenses or from a sense of inadequacy : self-reproach
3: a feeling of culpability for offenses
I feel guilty. When Joe got home from work and after his workout, I went to the store...alone. It is very rare that I go anywhere alone. I always have my shopping buddy with me, James. But this time I wanted to shop in peace. It is so hard to go anywhere with a toddler especially to a store he doesn't like. I felt empty handed. I felt so guilty that the hour and 45 minutes I was gone, I called home 3 times. I even bought James a toy. I wanted to come with a surprise for him. My whole purpose to go to the store was to buy myself something new, which I did. BUT I didn't try on the new dress before I bought it and guess what, I have to return it. I will spare the gory details as to how it does or doesn't fit right. I know I should not feel guilty, I just cant help it. James and I are really great buddies. we are always together. he is my entire world. I dread the day he starts school. I know I need to prepare myself and him as well for when the time comes. But how does a mother ever let go?